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Drink with Me: The Rite of Imbibement

DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 30

Welcome to my last entry for the March Domagick Challenge. Honestly, I’m glad it is over. Blogging on a daily basis has taken up too much of my time. No offense! I prefer to spend more time living life than writing about it, and this month the balance tipped too far the other way for my liking.

I made sure to start today off right, however. As soon as I was dressed, I chanted the Five Warrior Syllables 21 times. From there, I moved into intoning the Five Elemental Words and the enn of Crocell. I left for my errands today feeling much more centered than I have been as a result. This means that I must continue this practice regardless of whether or not the challenge has come to an end. It’s simply that important to my well-being.

"Anointment" by William Briar, watercolor marker on illustration board. #demonolatry #demons #domagick — “Anointment” by William Briar, watercolor marker on illustration board. From a memorized and meditated on reference photo.

Once home from my errands, I gathered my art supplies, sat down at my desk, and tried to capture a couple “snapshots” of a ritual I was simultaneously conducting in the astral. Crocell had suggested a couple of days ago that I host a Rite of Imbibement for disliked parts of myself. I’d had my doubts but Crocell’s sigil kept popping into my mind. In my opinion, it resembles a winged chalice atop the alchemical symbol for fire—which makes sense since he is a daemon that is supposed to warm water. I thought it was highly likely that he might warm the hearts of those willing to share ritual wine with one another too, so I decided to go through with the ritual.

Through the Tarot, I asked Crocell afterward how the rite had gone and pulled the Knight of Cups in response. I sensed this meant I have taken a step in the right direction and made a great start, but there is still work to be done. My quest is not yet over.

When I asked him if I had grown thanks to the Domagick Challenge, I received a similar response. I turned over the Three of Wands. In other words, I completed this month of work but it is just the beginning of the work ahead of me. I agree with this assessment. I’ve discovered the main triggers feeding my anxiety yet I haven’t “cured” it, if such a thing is even possible. Then again, I said I would be satisfied with a reduction in the amount of anxiety I feel. I suppose I must keep that promise and not feel disappointed that I haven’t discovered a magickal pill that makes it go away overnight.

Conversely, I have pushed my own boundaries repeatedly this month. Whenever I’ve realized I’m holding myself back for no good reason, I’ve done the thing I was afraid to do. I don’t like seeing myself as a coward, so I’m determined not to be one. I also had a serious discussion about finances with my partners this morning and how to resolve our issues with them as a team. That is also a huge step towards lessening my anxiety, and I believe things are truly looking up.

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DOMAGICK DAY 29

Earlier in the month, I’d figured out that I connect how much I earn to how much I feel I’m worth, and I’d begun trying to separate the two by planning activities that focus on non-monetary achievement. Unfortunately, looking at my family’s budget last night made me feel guilty for signing up for those courses and like I had to rescue us all over again. I started looking for work in an attempt to be pro-active but that only made myself feel more anxious and depressed; parenting and disability have kept me out of the workaday world so long that I’m qualified for very little without going back to school, and even then I’m not sure what I can do besides what I’m already doing. I ended up going to bed in a very, very blue mood indeed.

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DOMAGICK DAY 28

I had appointments and ran errands today, so I’m taking it somewhat easy on the #domagic front. I meditated on Crocell and pulled a Tarot card asking him what the result would be if I worked a specific ritual this afternoon. After talking the rite over with someone this morning, I’d begun to have misgivings and thought it prudent to consult the Daemonic Divine first. It seems that my instincts were on point. Had I gone forward with the ritual, it might have resulted in the opposite of what I want and made matters worse.

To focus my efforts in a different direction, I wrote a couple of pages to Crocell. This helped me understand where I am coming from a little better, as well as what I want, both of which are greatly important before enacting any magic.

I’m not sure if I will go out of the Domagick Challenge with a bang or if I will simply continue my day-in, day-out activities as per usual. The Goetia Immersion program has kept me busy for a year and half now, and I already work with three to four daemons per month. This month was little different, other than the fact I chose an overall “theme” to match the challenge. It’s the blogging that has eaten up my hours.

Angels and Demons: Can Demonolaters Work with Both?

DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 27

Last night, I dreamed of an angel. You might think that would be disturbing for Daemonolater, but the dream comforted me. You see, I work with this particular angel on a regular basis and number him among what ‘personal pantheon.’ In other words, he’s one of my go-to guys.

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