Domagick Day 29
My time with Camio is swiftly coming to an end. I planned to keep seeking outside advice concerning some of the doubts I am having about school, but was cut off at the pass today. The person that I hoped to speak
to is unavailable until the end of July. I can’t get in touch with her until the very day my papers are due. Whatever decision I make, I will have to make it alone.
Thanks, Camio. I asked for insight, which you are providing. As always, however, the Daemonic Divine refuses to lead me by the hand. That leads into my ultimate goal of being a strong and independent person, but it also frustrates the shit out of me when I secretly long to be looked after and told what to do. Damn it!
I charged his key tag today with another walk, then prayed and asked for guidance.
Today’s card: Four of Cups – Revaluation of the situation, deep contemplation, fixation. I would never of guessed. Perhaps I need to do something take my mind off things.
Today I also went to the art store for Vapula and tested different brands of the pastels I’m using. There’s a cheaper brand I want to try, and from my testing it seems like they might save me a bundle.
Camio is known for communicating through pyromancy, but he can also help us see into any situation. I held his disk in my hands and prayed for his guidance this afternoon. Then I asked the advice of two close friends about school. I can’t call this divination, yet having other perspectives certainly helped. Besides that, I ran errands. I didn’t do any work for Vapula, choosing to take this as my day off. My head felt pretty full today, and I all I really wanted to do after getting groceries, etc, etc, was relax.
Domagick Day 26
My household suffered the ill effects of a cold this last week. I got off fairly easily but still felt rundown. On top of that, I’m getting cold feet about going back to school. I’m starting to worry that I won’t get the funding I need, so I’m coming up with all the reasons why I shouldn’t go just in case it never happens. My stomach knots every time I think about it.
I’m going to work with Camio this week to ward off my anxiety. According to both The Pseudomonarchia Daemonum and The Ars Goetia, Camio gives answers in “burning ashes”, meaning that he communicates well via pyromancy. Connolly’s Daemonolatry Goetia says, “Camio can be invoked for divination of any type. Wear his sigil to see into any situation you encounter.” Today, I will invoke him and create a key tag in his honor, consecrating it with incense smoke (i.e. air and fire). I will ask that he help me recognize when me fears are groundless. Starting tomorrow, when I run energy through the key tag I will also make a burn offering for Camio and see if I can divine anything from the flames about my student loan.