Spring Awakening

I continue to work on my personal oracle over this last week, painting portraits of Leviathan, Eurynomous, and Astaroth.

I’m particularly pleased with the work I did on Astaroth’s painting, as I’ve struggled to capture her on paper for some time. I also began canvases for Unsere, Verrine, and Amducius. I still have at least eight more cards to go, but I do not think I’ll be able to finish that many by April 1. Even so, I’ll keep at it so that I will have the oracle deck for use for at least part of the next Domagick challenge.

However, I must now set my painting on the back burner and concentrate on a couple of different tasks over the next week instead.

First, I must prepare for the Spring Equinox and the First Rite to Lucifer. In this ritual, I will celebrate him as Lord of the air, enlightenment, and new beginnings. At other times in my life, I have participated in shamanic journey circles dedicated at this time of year to Waking the Bear: a harbinger of spring where I live who begins to emerge from the dream of hibernation around the Equinox. I do not typically associate Lucifer with this animal, fierce and powerful as it is, but I will undoubtedly still journey deep within the Bear’s cave this week to see what both may have to say to me. Now is when the world reawakens and all can be reborn anew.

Right after the Equinox, I’m taking part in a Spring Novelama from March 22 to 25th. The goal is for each participant to produce twenty-five thousand words from the comfort of their own writing cave. I may not hit that target, but I’m dedicated to completing at least one story I have on the go. I’ve set up my entire schedule to focus on those four days.

Wish me luck, and Happy Equinox!

Joy Through Play – Feb Domagick Week 4

The latest Domagick challenge is nearly complete. Its theme was meditation, and while it was recommended that we give classical forms a try, I chose to meditate each day with my paintbrush in hand on the Daemonic Divine. I’d hoped that the artistic meditations would deepen my connection to the Daemonic Divine as well as prepare me creatively for any other work I had to do later in the day. Now, a month later, I would have to say that this is a successful technique—with some caveats.

Artistic meditations depend on lighter work—quite literally. Unlike meditations it can be conducted by candlelight or even with your eyes closed, these kind of meditations require good lighting and your eyes open. Some people may feel they are not able to go as “deep” while doing art, either into their trance state or into their own psyche. To rectify that, I would suggest putting on a pair of headphones while you paint or draw, noise canceling if possible, and listening to either a drumming track or music you find atmospheric but nonintrusive. This will disconnect you from the outside world while helping anchor you more profoundly to the subject of your meditations. Even so, I was still experimenting with color and shapes using this technique—playing to a certain extent—and it was nearly impossible for me to finish an artistic meditation in a dark mood. Therefore, while this technique could be used for hexcraft and the like, I believe it is better geared towards “lighter” magick.

Secondly, the artistic meditations tended to satisfy my need to be creative well enough that I often felt done for the day once completing them. I would become so completely absorbed in my task that I sometimes lost track of time. That, coupled with a hectic month, meant I got less writing done that I wanted. Despite this, my mood was vastly brighter than usual during these dark winter months, and I felt marvelously accomplished despite the lower than desired page count. Regardless of whether my paintings were decent or not, I now look over this month’s sketchbook with a certain amount of pride for a job well done. Seen this way, they are possibly too involving to successfully prime me for other creative work later in the day, but shouldn’t be dismissed when it comes to emotional control and regulation.

These meditations have helped me see a different side of the Daemonic Divine too. They helped me realize I can relax more than I have been with the Daemonic, that I can have fun and just bask in their energies, rather than doing hard labor all of the time. Occasionally, resting and restoring your reserves is enough. I frequently tell that to my students but have a hard time listening to my own advice. It was good to absorb the lesson so easily and intrinsically that I didn’t fight against it every step of the way.

When I was pushing for a higher wordcount, my writing caused me repeatedly to meditate on Astaroth this week, as I have many times throughout February. As before, I struggled to capture the seduction and confidence of this powerful demoness. More than anything, I’ve wanted to get her eyes down on paper, as I find these the most arresting thing about her. I’m not sure I’ll ever get the Queen of Heaven right at this point, but I have greatly enjoyed the time I have spent with her. It’s been frustrating at times, but enlightening.

May your March be filled with light and joy!

Painting and Peace – February 2019 Domagick Week 1

I’m seven days into February Domagick challenge and enjoying this month’s work far more than I thought I would. I had expected my planned artistic meditations on the Daemonic Divine to supplement my daily morning pages, further loosening me up creatively and energetically before any other work I had scheduled that day. I had anticipated that the art would feel much the same way the pages did–occasionally enjoyable, but just as often like drudgery, a necessary chore meant to organize my mind for the day ahead. They help me purge and order my thoughts, hopefully getting whatever might hold me back from out of my brain.

In theory, anyway. If I have a problem I can solve, I find the morning pages extremely helpful. I’m a proactive person. I can only whine about a situation for so long, even to myself, before I have to take action to change it. Unfortunately, some issues will always remain beyond our control. No matter how long we complain or what solutions we try to put in place, we may not be able to effect change simply because it isn’t our problem to solve. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t affect us, of course. When I journal about such things in my morning pages, my lack of agency sometimes frustrates me enough that it puts a damper on my mood afterward, and I have to work to pull myself back up. It’s annoying, and often feels counterproductive for a method described by its author as a meditation.

My artistic meditations feel utterly different. There’s little sense of getting the garbage out before I start creating for the day with these. Instead, I get lost in the moment, and in the Daemonic itself, never worrying about the long-term consequences of what color I’m laying down or the lines that I am making. It is as if I am filling myself up rather than purging. My mood feels better—brighter and calmer—after this work. It may not produce as much written material, but in terms of shifting mental states it is quicker, longer lasting, and more effective. That’s something to remember and keep in mind for future use.

I split my artistic meditations this week between three daemons. First, I spent time with Unsere, who I venerated February 1-3 for what many would traditionally consider Imbolc. To me, she represents motherhood and familial happiness, so growth, bounty, and nature figured symbolically in the marker sketches I did for her.

From there, I moved on to three days with Lucifer, who I associate with knowledge and illumination. My love of abstract art began to peek through when I tried to convey what I saw in my meditations with him through the use of shape and color. Somehow the shift in style resulted in a change in mood as well, and this was when I began to honestly look forward to the art sessions each day.

Lastly, I spent a day with Astaroth. This was the lone piece I used the computer to create. I could not get the colors I wanted otherwise, hot and searing to the eye. I saw it my mind before I created it, and it came of the closest to what I wanted of all the pieces this week. Strangely, I enjoyed creating at least. There’s something to be said for the energy of making drawings by hand, I suppose.

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I’m already looking forward to the next week’s meditations. Are you participating in this month’s Domagick challenge? How is it treating you?

Here’s to next week being even better!

DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 26

I’m cheating today. I’m been in what I like to call Daemonic Sunday School for the majority of the day, so I’m going to count that as my Domagick work. I did some scrying and Tarot reading with Astaroth as part of a group ritual, and she gave me some insight into a creative project. Besides that, I also created a video for the class I have to teach and put up another post here on exactly what Daemonolatry is. Frankly, I’m exhausted, so I’m calling it a day. I know when to call it quits.