DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 30
Welcome to my last entry for the March Domagick Challenge. Honestly, I’m glad it is over. Blogging on a daily basis has taken up too much of my time. No offense! I prefer to spend more time living life than writing about it, and this month the balance tipped too far the other way for my liking.
I made sure to start today off right, however. As soon as I was dressed, I chanted the Five Warrior Syllables 21 times. From there, I moved into intoning the Five Elemental Words and the enn of Crocell. I left for my errands today feeling much more centered than I have been as a result. This means that I must continue this practice regardless of whether or not the challenge has come to an end. It’s simply that important to my well-being.
Once home from my errands, I gathered my art supplies, sat down at my desk, and tried to capture a couple “snapshots” of a ritual I was simultaneously conducting in the astral. Crocell had suggested a couple of days ago that I host a Rite of Imbibement for disliked parts of myself. I’d had my doubts but Crocell’s sigil kept popping into my mind. In my opinion, it resembles a winged chalice atop the alchemical symbol for fire—which makes sense since he is a daemon that is supposed to warm water. I thought it was highly likely that he might warm the hearts of those willing to share ritual wine with one another too, so I decided to go through with the ritual.
Through the Tarot, I asked Crocell afterward how the rite had gone and pulled the Knight of Cups in response. I sensed this meant I have taken a step in the right direction and made a great start, but there is still work to be done. My quest is not yet over.
When I asked him if I had grown thanks to the Domagick Challenge, I received a similar response. I turned over the Three of Wands. In other words, I completed this month of work but it is just the beginning of the work ahead of me. I agree with this assessment. I’ve discovered the main triggers feeding my anxiety yet I haven’t “cured” it, if such a thing is even possible. Then again, I said I would be satisfied with a reduction in the amount of anxiety I feel. I suppose I must keep that promise and not feel disappointed that I haven’t discovered a magickal pill that makes it go away overnight.
Conversely, I have pushed my own boundaries repeatedly this month. Whenever I’ve realized I’m holding myself back for no good reason, I’ve done the thing I was afraid to do. I don’t like seeing myself as a coward, so I’m determined not to be one. I also had a serious discussion about finances with my partners this morning and how to resolve our issues with them as a team. That is also a huge step towards lessening my anxiety, and I believe things are truly looking up.