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Asafoetida: Love and Femininity #Domagick Day 27

As the month comes to a close, it’s time to reflect back on my work with the daemoness Asafoetida. I found it challenging in a couple of ways, and not because she has a “dubious” historical background.

At first I found the concept of self-love difficult, and had to concentrate on sending loving kindness out towards others more than I did on sending it towards myself. However, as the month progressed, I became more comfortable with the time spent on the self-care routine of the daily chakra maintenance. I already participate in this sort of psychic hygiene, but I know now that I need to engage in at least a like cleansing every day since my surgery.

Secondly, I second-guessed everything that I sensed about Asafoetida, worrying it was too stereotypical feminine. From the first, the color that I sensed for her was light pink. I smelled rose petals whenever I meditated on her for any length of time. Was this how she manifested for me legitimately, or was I dredging up Barbie-like brain chatter simply because she is the daemon of feminine attributes? I still sensed what I sensed, but I doubted it, and that doubt got in the way of our communication. I will have to approach her again at another time and re-assess.

Nonetheless, the practice of chanting the warrior syllables or moving through the Salutations of Ptah everyday has made me feel better, mentally and physically. I “sense” my chakras run better afterwards too, which is the point, of course. On the other hand, being able to improve my mood when I start feeling the afternoon blues has helped my self-esteem, even if I am not always 100% successful. Today I ran through both the warrior syllables and the salutations, and my mind feels like I have taken a refreshing nap.

My card of the day was the 2 of cups, which I read as starting a new relationship. I believe that I am starting a new relationship with how I will be handling my psychic hygiene from here on out.

If it works, do it again! #domagick 16

I’ll keep this short. It’s Friday and, truth be told, I want to get to my weekend! Since yesterday’s practice worked so well, I decided I best duplicate it this afternoon. If it works, do it again. I read my cards first and pulled Lenormand’s THE BOUQUET, indicating I was on the right path; I’d nourish my heart chakra through the gift of an easier practice today. After a short body scan, I went straight to chanting the five warrior syllables. I didn’t concentrate on moving energy through my body at first, just air. After about ten minutes, I started working Reiki energy along my core and down through my legs along with the syllables as well. My head felt much more clear afterward, and my body felt better from having been at work all morning. Success! It does my heart and its chakra good!

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Back to Five Warrior Syllables #domagick 15

I fell into bad habits again today and sat down at my desk before I sat down on my meditation cushion. I broke off after only a couple of hours work, however, and that made the difference. More imporantly, I switched up the order of my practice today and started with my card reading. I pulled two Lenormand pairs for the recent prompts on how to open my heart chakra. They inspired me to return to a technique I haven’t used for months: chanting the five warrior syllables.

Day 14: Show Kindness by (KEY + BOUQUET) opening up to compliments and rewards. This Lenormand pair gave me quite a bit to think about today during the Loving Kindness meditation that followed. If I shrug off someone’s compliment, am I denying both of us a kindness?

Day 15: Connect to (SNAKE + SUN) my desire to be happy. This Lenormand pair says it’s okay to look on the bright side and to even treat yourself once in a while. Today I decided to treat myself by depending purely on physical practice and skipping the “energetic” side of chakra balancing. While I did check in with what my body felt like on the physical level, I did not move through my body energetically afterward to see how each chakra was doing. I simply chanted the five warrior syllables of Bon Buddhism over and over and over until my mind and body felt free and clear, trusting that the technique itself worked as well as it always has for me. Frankly, this is the best day I have had yet in this challenge.

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The second of my valentine gifts. Not as cute as the last, but just as adorable to someone who writes horror!

 

"The Rite of Imbibement," #Pastels on toned pastel paper. #demonolatry #demons #domagick

Drink with Me: The Rite of Imbibement

DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 30

Welcome to my last entry for the March Domagick Challenge. Honestly, I’m glad it is over. Blogging on a daily basis has taken up too much of my time. No offense! I prefer to spend more time living life than writing about it, and this month the balance tipped too far the other way for my liking.

I made sure to start today off right, however. As soon as I was dressed, I chanted the Five Warrior Syllables 21 times. From there, I moved into intoning the Five Elemental Words and the enn of Crocell. I left for my errands today feeling much more centered than I have been as a result. This means that I must continue this practice regardless of whether or not the challenge has come to an end. It’s simply that important to my well-being.

"Anointment" by William Briar, watercolor marker on illustration board. #demonolatry #demons #domagick
“Anointment” by William Briar, watercolor marker on illustration board. From a memorized and meditated on reference photo.

Once home from my errands, I gathered my art supplies, sat down at my desk, and tried to capture a couple “snapshots” of a ritual I was simultaneously conducting in the astral. Crocell had suggested a couple of days ago that I host a Rite of Imbibement for disliked parts of myself. I’d had my doubts but Crocell’s sigil kept popping into my mind. In my opinion, it resembles a winged chalice atop the alchemical symbol for fire—which makes sense since he is a daemon that is supposed to warm water. I thought it was highly likely that he might warm the hearts of those willing to share ritual wine with one another too, so I decided to go through with the ritual.

Through the Tarot, I asked Crocell afterward how the rite had gone and pulled the Knight of Cups in response. I sensed this meant I have taken a step in the right direction and made a great start, but there is still work to be done. My quest is not yet over.

When I asked him if I had grown thanks to the Domagick Challenge, I received a similar response. I turned over the Three of Wands. In other words, I completed this month of work but it is just the beginning of the work ahead of me. I agree with this assessment. I’ve discovered the main triggers feeding my anxiety yet I haven’t “cured” it, if such a thing is even possible. Then again, I said I would be satisfied with a reduction in the amount of anxiety I feel. I suppose I must keep that promise and not feel disappointed that I haven’t discovered a magickal pill that makes it go away overnight.

Conversely, I have pushed my own boundaries repeatedly this month. Whenever I’ve realized I’m holding myself back for no good reason, I’ve done the thing I was afraid to do. I don’t like seeing myself as a coward, so I’m determined not to be one. I also had a serious discussion about finances with my partners this morning and how to resolve our issues with them as a team. That is also a huge step towards lessening my anxiety, and I believe things are truly looking up.

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DOMAGICK DAY 29

Earlier in the month, I’d figured out that I connect how much I earn to how much I feel I’m worth, and I’d begun trying to separate the two by planning activities that focus on non-monetary achievement. Unfortunately, looking at my family’s budget last night made me feel guilty for signing up for those courses and like I had to rescue us all over again. I started looking for work in an attempt to be pro-active but that only made myself feel more anxious and depressed; parenting and disability have kept me out of the workaday world so long that I’m qualified for very little without going back to school, and even then I’m not sure what I can do besides what I’m already doing. I ended up going to bed in a very, very blue mood indeed.

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Photo taken at the Muttart Conservatory in Edmonton. #yeg #domagick

Black Kites and Red Flowers #domagick

DOMAGICK CHALLENGE DAY 14

I made another burnt offering to Oso today. Afterward, I launched the sigil I’d created. I sang Oso’s enn during both, my song becoming more and more sibilant as I went along. The imagery that appeared in my mind’s eye during the launch was distinctly different than usual. Strangely, I heard it as a senryū at the same time:

Black kite flies over
the white-capped mountains of hope—
my fears disappear.

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